Sometimes all we need is to leave, to just let go and to get away from home. Just to come back and see what we really have. I know everyone says travel changes you and that meeting new people, seeing new places could make you so much more happy. And to be honest I didn`t think that`s completely true, until I went without my parents, with two of my best friends and we had to figure it out all on our own.
Now, I do think a new place can show you many different aspects of life. Most of all you can step back and look at what you`ve got and what you want to change back home. Because sometimes you just can`t see the things that need a change when you are still right beside them.
A new culture could show you how to live your life differently and once you got away, your out of that everyday trap. Were everyday goes the same and you almost seem to be losing yourself in it.
So my best friends ad me, we went to Barcelona for 5 days, but to me it felt a lot longer. We experienced so much, saw so many things, we sometimes even forgot to eat, because of how overwhelmed we were. There we were, 3 girls from the age of 16-18 just having the time of our life`s. Learning so many things in just 5 days and all we had to do was leaving home to grow a little more. We meet a lot of people talked more talks than we would`ve when we were back home. Suddenly you get to know strangers, who tell you their whole life story. Sometimes you could listen hours to some people, because they just talk right into your heart.
You see poor and rich. You see so many different nations. You look down those city lights and start to wonder what life`s really like. You start to question how people live their life`s in your own country. You are all on your own and you can almost feel that you are growing so much energy, inspiration and you are taking so much with you. So when you come home nothing changed, until you realize you are the one who changed.
I met this boy in Barcelona and it may sound cheesy and some may say I am naive and hey you know what maybe I am, but I don`t care! I am sixteen years old, I meet this boy in my holidays and you know what? I may not even remember his name in a few months, or know what he looked like exactly. But I can tell you if I meet this boy back at home, I would`ve completely fallen in love with him. Sometimes you meet people in your life were it just feels right with them. You don`t even need to be talking the same language and you could feel more safe around them, than anyone else. He almost made me feel like I was at home.
For the past few months I`ve had big up`s and downs with boys. I was completely confused by every one of them and all I could think was. There has to be something more than this, someone special.
Don`t get me wrong I am not expecting to marry the boyfriend I have when I am sixteen years old. But I do think, there has to be someone who truly belongs to my teenage old self. There has to be a guy who has the same interest, someone who finally treats me well. And he, he was all of that.
Strange thing is, it didn`t make me sad that he was living on the other side of the world and that I may never see him again. It made me happy to think about that I was right. There is something more, someone special. I just have to wait a little longer and maybe open up my mind a little more. Get away from home and meet new people. As a girl you sometimes have this feeling that you are ready for a new relationship and you so badly want a boyfriend and that is exactly when I can assure you, you`re not getting one! Then when you least expect it somebody will come into your life and turn it completely around.
So now, I am going to focus on me, grow back my confidence and get my shit together. I am going to be dreaming about my Barcelona romance, about the guy who had everything I`ve imagined and time will go so fast, I won`t even notice.
So here`s to all the memories I`ve made, and to all there is to come.
